Would You Read This?

I started a new dark romance novel, but I’ve been really struggling with whether writing is worth it. I love writing and bringing characters to life and hearing about how people related to them or how much my writing helped them get through something, but I feel like less people are reading my stuff. I published a new book in a series and so far it hasn’t sold anything. Which is fine. I never wrote/write for money. Writing fanfics is different in the way that your readers share pieces of themselves with you, they react to what you write, they share their feelings, and you get to know them as not just readers but as friends. With writing novels… I feel like I’m writing to a wall because no one talks back, no one shares their feelings or stories. It becomes to the point where, yes, I’m writing what I love, but I want others to enjoy it too. I want to know what others think and I want to know what they were reminded of. So, I start to lose confidence that I’m even good at what I’m doing. I know my writing has been not as great as it used to be. I’ve fought battles against myself on it and just gone “Welp, it’s good enough.” I just want to love writing again. ^-^ I’ve been writing a long…. time, and I just miss the love for it. This book that this piece is from… I’m having fun writing it, but the fact it won’t be read kind of makes me question why I’m doing it. XD

Meet Me!

Name: I have many names that I go by from Minette, Minette Enfers, Quantum, Quantum Chickpea, and QC.

Age: 33. I turn 34 this year.

Pronouns: She/Her

Marriage Status: I am married.

Age I started Writing: Eleven years old.

Hobbies: Playing video games, digital art, drawing, painting with acrylics, sewing vintage dresses and other odds and ends, crocheting, knitting, baking, and cooking.

Things not many people know about me: I used to sing, dance, do theatre, and play guitar. I’m allergic to alcohol.

The book that made me want to be a writer: The Burn Journals by Brent Runyon. He’s amazing! I have all his books.

The book that got me interested in BDSM: Thirst by Michael Cecilione

My favorite movie: Moulin Rouge

My favorite drink: Coffee with creamer

My favorite show: Miraculous Ladybug and Chat Noir

My other writing: I have 170 works on AO3. (It’s free, lol)

My Pets: I have two cats. One, a grey kitty named, Dune, and another black cat named, Nightmare.

My health issues: I don’t typically talk about these because I don’t want to be a person who is defined by them. lol However, I do have IBS, PCOS, Fibromyalgia, Eczema, Psoriasis, Psoriatic Arthritis, Anxiety, Depression, and slight OCD. I don’t use medication to regulate any of it. I use diet, over the counter pain meds, writing, and art to try and combat it. Unfortunately, this also means I don’t work and because they’re all invisible disabilities or just illnesses, I’m not recognized by the gov’t as disabled. So, I write my ass off. lol

My way of seeing the world: I’m extremely accepting. I don’t care who you love or who you identify as or who you were born as or not or who you choose to fuck. I love you for WHO you are. A dick is a dick, and a nice person is a nice person regardless of race, sexual orientation, or gender. If you are a good person… that is all I care about. It makes me sad to see so much toxic hate in the world lately. I just want everyone to be equal and free to be themselves and not be judged for it or chastised for it. But it’s probably going to be a long time until that happens, sadly.

If you can think of anything else you would like to know about me… let me know. ^_^

We all have that hmmm… moment.

We all have that hmmm…. moment. The moment when we read something or see something and decide we want to learn more about it. The moment we find out a new kink or new fetish or new interest in general. It doesn’t have to be sexual.

Walking into Borders, a bookstore that is sadly no long around, at the age of fifteen I saw this book randomly sitting on a bookshelf out of place. Being a goth teenager, I instantly was drawn to it. I was even more drawn to it upon reading the back. I’ve loved vampires since I was three years old.

I brought it to my mom and asked her if I could get it and she said yes. So, I read it. I read it and fell in love with it and the main male lead, Julian, and it was the moment I realized something was different about me. Because it wasn’t just a book about a vampire and a mortal or a new vampire trying to find her way through life… It was a book that involved hardcore BDSM and romance with a concept around Egyptology. A book with an amazing tragic end. A book that made me go hmmm…. maybe this is something I’m into, and a book that changed my life forever.

This author no longer writes and wishes to forget this book ever existed. You cannot find copies of it on the shelves anymore at your mainstream bookstore and even online they go for a lot of money. At least, as far as I know last time I looked. This is my copy in the photo. I have let friends borrow it to read and I have read it to death as you can see from the stains, creases, and love poured into it’s pages and cover. It’s been taped back together. lol

But if you ask me what got me into the hmm… or BDSM and D/s? It was this book that showed me that a world like that existed.

Back then it wasn’t mainstream really. I don’t know anyone that even talked about it or showed it in romance novels. I can’t even tell you if this was first put into a romance section. From the other books in the back, it looks like it used to be horror genre. But either way, it was out of place and I picked it up.

That tends to happen to me often. I’ll walk into a bookstore and a book will be out of place and calling my name. Thirst isn’t the only book I’ve found out of place and picked up and purchased it.

I wish more writing had safe BDSM and D/s within it. I wish more books broke away from basic and moved into more hardcore stuff. I wish more books knew that it wasn’t the toys that made a Dom/Domme… it was the person and atmosphere they conjured around them. A Dom/Domme doesn’t need toys to be a dominant person. It’s a headspace, a way of moving, a lifestyle, an energy, a connection with someone. A person who feels safe to you as a submissive. A Dom/Domme is so much more than toys or sex. A Dom/Domme helps steer you in the right direction. A Dom/Domme keeps you in check and makes sure you’re doing everything possible to be the best you and thrive when you are too busy with life and forget everyday things like drinking water or eating or taking meds or staying on tasks you set out for yourself, all while making sure they are taking care of themselves too. A Dom/Domme is there to catch you when you fall and in turn… you are there to catch them. A Dom/Domme is human. A Dom/Domme can make mistakes. A Dom/Domme can pull a safeword, not only for themselves, but for you too when you need it and are too gone to pull them. A Dom/Domme is a friend, a lover, a play partner.

BDSM doesn’t have to involve sex. You can just have the D/s side of it. It can merely be someone checking up on you for the day or offer you good advice when you are lost and don’t know what to do. Someone who offers consequences that work for you to keep you on track, one’s you have both communicated about. And most of all… BDSM and D/s are built on trust and communication. YOU, as the sub, gift your full submission to them. They don’t get to rip it away or assume they own it. YOU decide. Afterall, you are giving away your mind, body, and soul to them.

I went on a tangent. lol I probably have way more to say about it, but my brain is dead. But this is a book that I love and yes, it’s old. There is some questionable wording and decisions, but given the fact it was written back in the 90’s… it gets a pass in my book. lol

Anyway, I’m thinking about doing an about me post.

Through Rain and Moonlight is now in Hardcover!

I wanted to make a pretty hardcover version for readers to have on their shelves if they wanted to. I know a lot of us enjoy having pretty hardcovers on our shelves. ^-^

Lately, I’ve been working on the next Secretary Series book, but I also have been working on a second book to Through Rain and Moonlight about Cormac, Aodh’s Dragon shifter Fire Gentry cousin, who is in this book. I felt like some readers might want to know his story and enjoy one about him because I know some of us also enjoy the villain. 😉

This book does have fade to black with steamy scenes in it, but it isn’t what you would usually expect from me in terms of spice level. However, the book about Cormac will be full spice level you would expect from my fingertips. haha.

TRIGGER WARNINGS are as follows for this book: Violence, War, Mentions of the Loss of a Child, Blood, and Gore.

This book dips it’s toes into a more gothic-like style at moments once you get to meet Cormac. He’s a seductively dark and twisted man with a equally dark past. And yes, yes, he has dragon wings and can shift into a dragon. Along with him, Aodh, the main lead in Through Rain and Moonlight, is also a shifter too but he shifts into a black cat/panther. While Cormac is a Fire Gentry (Fae), Aodh is half Earth and half Fire and a Cat-Sidhe. So, if shifters, faeries, war, and romance are your thing… Come on an adventure with Mortal Aisling and see what Cillian Castle has to offer.

Grab a copy here (ebook, paperback, and hardback are available. However, only the hardback has this cover. The other two have a cover drawn by me.)

Currently working on Book 6 of The Secretary Series!!!

I finally have gotten back my writing voice that I had lost and am currently back to the world of Carter, Ariana, their kids Josh and Emily, and their friends Matteo and Elena! Look out for Book 6, My Everything!

It’s taken so long to feel like myself again in terms of writing, and I’m so much happier with where I’m at now than I was before. 🙂 It took me a few books to get it back, and I’m thankful to say I’m back to being who I was and I’m excited for you all to read the next book!

One more left after this one before the series is complete! I’ll miss Carter and Ariana so much! This time they’re even older and their kids have grown up. 🙂 It’s going to be a bittersweet ending once the last book after this one is finished. I just love them so much.

In case you wanted to read the rest of the series, you can find a link to all of my books and websites and social media here!

Through Rain and Moonlight Teaser

The lagoon was deeper than I had expected, going on for miles until I couldn’t see the bottom. It felt like being in the middle of a vast ocean. Emptiness with mysteries lurking beneath. My heart sped up, as I began to worry about being eaten by something bigger than the two of us, causing me to breathe out.

Foolish.

My lungs burned as I ran out of oxygen, begging to swim to the surface and struggling against him to become free. He held me tighter and suddenly his hand reached up to grab my chin.

My eyes flung open, burning from the water, and I relaxed once I saw his calm expression. I ran my gaze from his eyes to his lips and back again, wondering what he was planning. Looking back at his lips, I wondered what they would feel like again. I wondered how well he kissed. I wondered what would happen if he did? The very curse that had plagued me many times now.

Snapping out of it, I realized I was completely out of oxygen. My lungs begging to breathe and my chest heaving. I was close to my body choosing for me, and it terrified me. This wasn’t how I had thought I would go, suffocating in the arms of a Cat-Sidhe.

He brought my gaze to his again, and I frantically looked at him.

Help me, please!

His lips suddenly crashed onto mine, and I closed my eyes and tried to not gasp beneath the waves for fear of drowning.

Part your lips and breathe.

Are you insane? Do you want me to drown?

The opposite, lass.

I parted my lips, allowing him to grant me air. I breathed in with my lips locked on his. He gripped the nape of my neck, holding me against him as he breathed with me. His lips brushed along mine, and I was lost in him. My fingers sinking into his hair and suddenly everything became alive. No longer was it a dull silence with the weak sounds of the lagoon around us. I could suddenly hear everything as if I was on the land.

Read it on Kindle for $4.99 or FREE with KindleUnlimited!

Updates!

I couldn’t sign into my WordPress for a bit. lol Since last time I wrote on here, I have dropped a few books. My newest being a Fantasy book about Good Folk with a heavy focus on a Cat-Sidhe male lead. ^-^ I’ll drop the summary below and the playlist I wrote to. It just went live today!

It was the fastest I’ve ever had a book go live. Usually Amazon Kindle takes around 36 hours to drop one of my books and it took less than an hour to drop this one. lol I was so surprised! lol Anyway, onward we go…

Summary:

When Aisling is being pursued by a man named Cian, a man who offers her food, shelter, and protection yet is wanted by every woman in the village, she’ll do anything to get away and become free. Even make a deal with a Cat-Sidhe, Prince Aodh, despite growing up being warned to never give a Fae her name. For names held power and to give a Fae your name was giving them control over you.

However, everything she has been taught by her parents and within her village seem to be just fairytales to scare away children from being spirited away. A future she had always wanted as a child to the point it had scared her parents.
But now her parents were gone and she had no friends but a librarian named Declan, who researches Fae in his enchantment room beneath his library, with nowhere to turn to be free of the village.

She had requested several items from Declan in the past: wine, bread, and beautiful locations to enjoy them. But the last item she had asked for is the most important: a sphere of moonstone. A stone known for healing, divine wisdom, clairvoyance, love, and fortune. But most of all, a leap to new beginnings. A step to freedom and the right to choose her own destiny.

But is Aodh, Prince of the Forest of Lights, the right choice or has she just found herself tumbling right into the same predicament she had been running from?

A world of Fire, Earth, Water, and Air with an impending war to be won and a heartbroken Prince torn between two selves.

Read it here!

Other books you may have missed can be found here at the Kindle link!

Trying is Enough

Recently I feel like I’ve lost myself as a writer, and that’s okay. I mean, I guess it’s okay. haha I’m accepting it. Sometimes things we do don’t work out how we think they will. I recently learned that. So, right now I’m relearning who I am as a person and as a writer.

Nothing is perfect and it doesn’t have to be. Mistakes help us learn and drive us forward to help others and ourselves.

But… I’m having the age old struggle of opening a document and staring at it for a while and then going, “hmmm yep there it is”, before closing it again. I’m having the struggle of not knowing what to do with myself. I’m thinking of ways that I can challenge myself to get back into my love of writing again.

And maybe I’ll challenge myself to do one short little moment on here everyday to try and get back to where I was, but I don’t even know if I could manage that much. haha

The point is, I’m trying. And sometimes trying is enough. As long as we try… and not give up… then that’s enough.

Learning to Love Again: This Time a Billionaire Just Dropped onto Webnovel!!!

Synopsis:

“Did I hurt you? Are you alright?” I looked into his eyes.
“I’m fine, are you alright?” John looked me over.
“Yeah, sorry, I realized that might have been a dumb idea,” I rolled my eyes at myself.
“Pfft, nah, sometimes being stupid is fun,” he shrugged.
“Mmhmm… and you know everything about stupid decisions?” I raised an eyebrow at him.
“Honey, I’m the king of bad decisions,” he teased me, and something about his words made me flashback to when I had screwed up in New York.
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Abigail fled home to her smalltown after she had trusted the wrong man back in the big city. She had kept her secret from her family to protect them, and it was going well. Until a Billionaire, John Miller, CEO of Miller Investments, blew into town and knocked her off her feet when she wasn’t looking for love, especially from a man like him.
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Contains mention of rape/emotional trauma
Learning to Love Again: This Time a Billionaire is created by Minette Enfers, an eGlobal Creative Publishing signed author.

It’s a book about a woman healing and a man who is patient enough to wait for her.

Learning to Love Again: This Time a Billionaire is COMING SOON!

Come meet a struggling, small town girl, Abigail, and an impatient Billionaire CEO, John, a man who is willing to be patient for her no matter how long it takes, in Learning to Love Again: This Time a Billionaire!

COMING SOON to Webnovel, Dreame, more…